stay close, don't go.

It's a damn cold night mannnn. Gosh I'm freezing. I'm alr prepared to hit the sack now.. What a gd weather to sleeep in! But thanks school, I've got a pathetic 2hr lecture later. RRARRr. It's okay, I'm gng to acc mummy dear later! I wna treat her for lunch or dinner(: Anyway, THANK GOD FOR THE SUN TODAY! HALLELUJAH! I've got a pretty even mild tan, but I love it. And roseeeey pink cheeks (slightly burnt though)! Thanks twinlove and jacq! Today was reallly fun. You guys tire me outtttt to the maxxxx. Cui-ed. I'm even too tired to upload the pictures now. Maybe tomorrow. Band drained every drop of energy off me. Can't imagine how hungry I was awhile ago. Should have eaten pineapple fried rice! Lol. Random... Anyway.. I think milk taste better before bedtime(: Hmmm. More outings and beaching and junking with you two on days when got-school-like-no-school days! Hate every 9AM mornings. GOD DAMN THE BUS 27, 23, and 15. I'm beaaaatttt. Nights(:

A sweet song(:

Jimmy Eat World, For Me This Is Heaven
The first star I see, may not be a star.
We can't do a thing but wait.
So lets wait for one more.
And the time, such clumsy time in deciding if it's time.
I'm careful, but not sure how it goes.
You can lose yourself in your courage.
When the time we have now ends.
When the big hand goes round again.
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?
And the mindless comfort grows,
when I'm alone with my great plans.
And this is what she says gets her through it:
"If I don't let myself be happy now then when?"
If not now when?
When the time we have now ends.
When the big hand goes round again.
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?
I close my eyes and believe wherever you are,
you're an angel for me.
When the time we have now ends.
When the big hand goes round again.
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?

Thank YOU(:

Thanks everyone for all of your wishes. I really appreciated it a lot! Especially when my day was so bad, it didn't fail to bring smiles across my face each time I received a greeting. And the saviour of my day would be Mr. Kannan(: He's really sooooo sweet today. He accompanied me for the night. Haha, it really felt like I was out with my lover! HAHA. X: Long long time since I felt that way. Anyway.. I liked the place (Mahanttan Fish Market? at Clark Quay Central) we went for dinner. The food and company was good! I was really full! I just loved the seafood platter. Strictly for sharing! LOL. Buttered rice, fried oysters, prawns, calamari rings and french fries! And we went for desserts at haagen daaz. 3 scoops + 2 toppings + boyfriend = sweeeet sweeet dessert. Saw MinXing dear, hahaha. Boy was she shocked. I wished you could join us for desserts, but thanks anyway for being so thoughtful! (: Don't worry and be so shocked la k, we're best friends still. Lol! Anyway... Thank you bf, Kannan Nadarajan Jia Neng. Thanks so much for being there, thanks for accompanying this emo-wrecked, thanks for the music. THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU(:

Just cut my bday cake w my mummy not long ago. For a moment I thought my cake would be left uncut in the refridgerator. The person I wna thank most is my mummy. Thank you mummy for everything. You mean a world to me, mummy. I LOVE YOU. (: Jayjay, please get well soon and Eerik, we will be waiting for you to come out on your first book out of BMT! Hehehe.

Thanks to my bandmates too! They celebrated for me and they played sparklers to celebrate lantern fest. which was one day bfore my day. It was fun with all of you. Going to miss you all so bad. Thanks bandits, especially my fluffies a.k.a bbms (winks.) I can't wait for later. Poldars going to celebrate yenfy darling and mine!! Yayyyy. See you guys(:

Less than three:
Rebellion Hearts <3 Sparklers.
Bandits in an empty carpark.
Thank you mummy, you are the world.
Sweet love.
Hahaha, the irreplaceable boyfriend. You are LOVE(:
See the resemblance of it's owner and itself? Lol.
The cake mummy bought for me(: Chocolate Mint Tea!
My mummy took this picture. I know I'm ugly, but trust me, for a gadget idiot like my mummy, this is a really good picture! She took 30SECONDS to get this picture! Just how cute she is.. Haha. Thanks MUM!
Okie, here you have me! The hair sucks, but I think there's nt much of a diff la. Hmmm. Finally I'm legal and 18! The fat and old Jolene!

Good night everyone. Thank you!

Hush now, baby..

Today's an uber long day. It felt surprising to me though. What a weird feeling... Oh well.. An early morning oh yes, I woke up so damn early, at 7.45AM when I only got into deep sleep at 3.30AM ): Sigh, my biological clock is that screwed up whenever it's the holidays. Anyway, I got my ass up and went down for another er..., interview. Yeap! I know you'll call me insane, but I got through(:(: YAY! And for the first time, I'm hired on the spot! But sigh, it's going to be a tough tough holiday at work. Gambatehhhh. Nehnehneh. Giak. Sound like a damn twit. But yeahhhh, wish me luck with two jobs. Lunched with Seehua at Velo City's MOS. Hmmm, never been there my entire life though I passed by a thousand times. So today is my virgin step into this shopping mall. Lol. Random I know, but Velo City gives me an impression of a tiny of 'fake' Vivo City. HAHA. It's as complicated, looks similar but smaller. ALRIGHT, nuff of me going on about some ulu shopping mall. Hmmm..

Today I had invitation for dinner from my lovely pisang love, lousiethebest and kannanmy3/4boyfriend ((x Night was really enjoyable, thanks for being there. Thanks for dinner, lou(: Lol. I had my night spinning and swinging in this playground I always enjoyed going to. I wished I could take home the plunger-looking-swirly-seat(: See-saw, which meant to be a childhood enjoyment.. turned into an errotic-amusement-thriller. Trust me. You don't wna know what happened moments ago. HAHAHA. And it is determined that GIRLS ARE STRONGER THAN GUYS!
Proven:


Loulin lifted Kannan with her butt! ((:
Hahaha, yeap! Let's go there again sooon. Just tryyyyy not to make ourselves, PEE, SHIT or PUKE. Okay? Pee and Shit?! HAHA, Puke loves you. Though I seriously feel like puking on the swing and swirling seat, I had fun going insane! Thank God there is toilet paper for Kannan/Shit. Ahmen. (: Anyway, I really wna try out that fisherman village thingy near White Sands. Let's catch fish, cook and eat together k? (: Bring me there on my birthday if you want, PISANGS. HAHA. Okieeee.. I'm going to end my entry. And OH, I'M SOOO GNA LOOK FORWARD to work later. Bluke. Really feels like puking. Nights everyone. Jolene loves you. Less than three. ((:


it will all soon be over ..

Heartfelt words ..

The Veronicas, Heavily Broken
Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair
Any day it'll all be over
Everyday there's nothing new
And I’ll just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
But it starts again, it'll never end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can’t you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again, it doesn't end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can’t you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Feels like I'm drowning
I'm screaming for air (screaming for air..)
Louder I'm crying
And you don't even care

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can’t you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move (what can I do?)
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken

I'm heavily broken (heavily broken)
And I don't know what to do
Can’t you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move (what can I do)
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
I'm heavily broken
I'm heavily broken